This morning, I’ve thought pretty seriously about being a writer. What does it really mean to me – what, if anything, do I hope to attain through my writing? I suppose I could break it down further if I consider that I write fiction AND poetry. I’ve been wondering . . . is it really possible to do both? I have at least two writing friends that question whether one can do simultaneous justice to two forms of writing. Lately, I seem trapped in a non-writing void. I wonder if this justifies me being a writer . .. perhaps, I’m merely a word tinkerer.
“Central to natural writing is an attitude of wonder.” Gabriele Lusser Rico~
Well, I certainly have that going for me. Sometimes . . . .
I remember looking at a new morning as if it were a fresh, Crayola drawn adventure. Every turn was of the brightest hue. My eyes saw roses and hot fudge sundaes instead of weeds and rice puddin. I actually looked forward to getting up and meeting life. But with age came health problems. Then time marched forward, bringing a sense of wheels spinning backward. So I could *think* of this void as age related, right? Then how should we explain
It’s probable my ways are catching up with me. I’ve never been a rudimentary person. I read about these prolific writers that rise early and write long. They’ll tell you it does NOT matter whether what you write is good or not, but that you write . . . for the sake of it.
“The work habit that underlies virtually all writing problems is the tendency to write and edit simultaneously.” Henriette Anne Klauser~
Ah HA!
Right then and there is MY problem! It’s true . . . I find it difficult these days to get to the second draft, as the first draft is in constant reload mode. I wonder what it is I have to say, then I try to control the flow of it, as if my muse can be captured and tamed like a river getting too close to a lock.
Well, I’m not sure I’ve come closer to any sort of answer. I suppose it’s a given that life, and a writers words, are a mixture of starts and stops. I gather too, that I’m not unique; even though I’d like to think I am. Perhaps Dorothea Brande says it best: “The most enviable writers are those who, quite often unanalytically and unconsciously, have realized that there are different facets to their nature, and are able to live and work with now one, now the other … ”
Rural Woman, here. Till next time -
PS: I love being a writer. What I can’t stand is the paperwork. – Peter de Vries
